needle and thread

as i sit here and wonder
why did i hang on this long?
why did i take your words and trust them?

i think oh my how am i going to mend my heart this time?
i cant find my needle and thread from the last time
i scramble though all my drawers in search for the tools that will fix me
where did i put them?
its been a while since i last used them
its been a while since i had my heart torn in two

for some reason it feels different than last time
it hurts so much more
before it would only feel numb
and now i feel pain
i really loved you
i gave you everything in return i got i love you too

four simple words
that i thought meant something
four words that made me feel oh so happy
until i realized i am not the only one
i was one of many
that those four words were just a copy of the oringinal

you made me feel like i was the one
when in reality it was someone else
someone else who you thought loved you too
you came to realize it was only temporary

now i watch you hold on to her
like i held on to you

now i wonder should i keep on trusting what was given to me
or should i let it go
all i have is the past
and do i have the present?
will i be in the future?

...ah found them!!
now dearest tools fix this quickly
fix the heart that will be forever his

and as these tools mend my heart
thoughts will pounder in my mind
should i hold on just a bit longer?
or should i just let go knowing that there is a chance of honesty